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Nuvolascura - Myriad
02:00
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Fingers caress a hard disk of flesh
Sunlit shadows stream through the window
Reveal a new abnormality
My whole body shudders at the thought
Hoped it was over, a freak accident
Prepare for the marathon again
Take off your clothes
Poke and prod and cut into
Where does your answer lie
Watchful staring eyes
Searching, pleading, crying
Crying until a new edict comes along
Into the fold and changes everything
Am I a number to claim to meet your quota
Scare into submission, shove on a conveyor belt
Can you view me as an individual complex and unique case Or just some data on paper
How could you make the most basic mistake
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The new arsenal of weaponizing memories.
Buying expectations from manufactured characters.
Perpetuate a narrative by craving revenge scenarios.
Sometimes we will have to move forward without the full closure of stories. Transgressions against us, not always resolved.
Priorities in our sanity, more important than our vengeance.
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What can you do when you can't convince yourself that everything is already fine ?
It's good enough for anybody else, but I still waste my time on minor fixes to invisible problems that only exist in my head.
I'm turning pages writing answers to questions that haven't been asked yet.
Chemicals, electrical impulse. Unachievable.
I'm fixated on outdated wallpaper with possible flaws behind. I'm obsessed with the uncontrollable and visions of the divine.
Chemicals, electrical impulse.
I live with the knowledge that I'll never be who I should be.
But what would it have been like if I could have gotten as close as I could.
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4. |
Massa Nera - Fractures
04:13
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Incision after incision
Just below the skin
Will it ever stop?
Death can come from a thousand tiny cuts
Will this ever end?
Maybe I should keep my distance Is it harder to love me this way?
Maybe I should fade away
disappearing
Apologies are meaningless when actions stay the same
Why do I even bother trying to explain
When you can't see outside the lines that someone else has drawn
You can't see outside the lines that someone else has drawn
Apologies are meaningless when actions stay the same
Why do I even bother trying to explain When you can't see outside the lines that someone else has drawn
Why do I even bother if you're too far gone
Approaching my line in the sand Patience wearing thin
It's easier to burn a bridge than to make amends
Approaching my line in the sand
Patience wearing thin
It's easier to burn a bridge than to make amends
Will we watch it crumble?
Only time will tell Tell me how it ends
Will we watch it crumble? Only time will tell Tell me how this ends
Will we watch it crumble? Only time will tell Tell me how this ends
Will we watch it crumble? Only time will tell Tell me how this ends
Will we watch it crumble? Only time will tell
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5. |
Hawak - Newmoon
02:10
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Under the new moon
There is movement
Shapes forming
Real slow at first
Nothing real yet
Something restless
Under the new moon
(Let down. Let.
Bury your past)
In the middle of the sun
A dark circle
In the shadows on the ground
We sow our sorrow
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Raise it up
The ropes, they whine
Untouched
Smell of death
Wet stone, stiff air
Pitch black
Decayed eyes
Burning flashing alive
Defenses fall
Awake, aware
Blaspheme
They should not be
It's been eternity since they tasted flesh
Bones cracked open, the marrow sucked dry
They knew not what they unleashed
Open tomb, trap revealed
They will feed
Can't you hear it
The land will run with red
Make up for lost time
Locked away no more
Lulled by the pained screams
Slip back to shadow
They knew not what they unleashed
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7. |
Closer - Lake of Shells
04:38
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Like a pleasant fiction
One errant memory
It builds character With no ceremony
And a wren's breath
So I should be grateful
Waiting for my year to drown
Straw yellow pales the morning
Alignment stripe in quiet
Depthless, long unwanted
Scenario A
Scenario B
Posterity is painted with names
And optimism is a liar
Eternities, all artificial
And the luxury of excess frosts the windows
Shout myself off the map
Worn tide
Granite on the shoreline
Watch me from the hilltop
Full eyes stamped frozen I
didn't mind the captivity
All they see is limitation
Salt of misery
Offset reenactments
Pared down and spindle
Green with the evening
I'm left with only gestures
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8. |
Frail Body - Titus
01:06
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It's been years since I could say
With any honesty
And when I'm standing in one place
I'm not sure that I'm awake
Claret
Head rest
And inadvertently
Postponed in burgundy
The more nights that I'm away
The more I feel like I'm at bay
With the Carolina cold
And the hospital
Sick of the sunlight that kept us apart
If I can keep up at this pace
I can forget about that day
Tired
Cold
Worn out
But at least I'm home
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Scratch their back and they'll hatch wars
Election day thieves settle the score
Case of emergency power writes history
Case of emergency build more cages
Until we're never free
Will you die with your eyes open?
Red skies in the morning
Did they die with their eyes open?
Take warning take warning
Emerald eyes watch me take off my clothes Emerald eyes ask me who my family knows
Trade secret torture. It's crowd control.
Handshake promises laced with bullet holes Shrines built for holy books on the heads of checkpoint babies and lives they took
Will my crying mother return to the sea
My father, his little brothers through the eyes of me
Balfour dreams of exile and the natives are getting hostile
Birthright cleansing they can't kill us all
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A fight.
A hope to live.
And die to shed this skin.
This penance means nothing.
It's too late to salvage this peace.
This anger is all I have left and it won't save me.
I'm expected to change what they made me become to survive. A veil of darkness covers my eyes.
Lead me through those gates tonight.
Taste the sulphur on my lips and sink further into this.
Every day is one more day and this is how it ends.
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The crescent absolves
The pain of daylight
Ripe on my skin
Tearing it off
You know I carry it with me still
These deadweight hooks turning me green
And I can tell you why this caged bird sings
But it ain't pretty
And I've got a hunger
This diet of broken halos just can't sustain
And I've got a thirst
The likes of which you've never seen
And I've got a vision
It cripples my sore eyes
And I've got a hunger
And I've got a thirst
And I've got a vision
It's beckoning this hearse
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12. |
Amitié - I Blame You
02:30
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Do you know how many times I've looked up to you? My perception of you has completely changed. Who are you?
Where are you?
What have you done to us?
Do you realize you've ruined it all?
There is no trust but what did you expect?
You threw it out the window.
I hope you enjoyed yourself because your life will never be the same. Fuck you.
These waves, they are taking me down.
I am the one, I've said this before. Just open your eyes now
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13. |
Elle - Whelm
03:04
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I've tried. you've tried
eyes open, mouth shut
colored feelings painted on tense canvas hands for stretching/pulling
until the piece breaks
a puzzle piece confused
lost in a sea of thoughts
drowning for you
look through and you'll see me
dazzling at the bottom
sunken, stripped and alive
a child of the sea
frail treasure in the deep
waiting for you to find me.
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14. |
Certain Distance
04:18
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Smoke signals from burning banks
The collapse of empire, the gnashing of teeth into gravel and concrete a monopoly on violence today marks the birth of what's next
No future but ours, No future but ours
It only takes a spark to start a prairie fire.
It only takes a spark to start a prairie fire.
It only takes a spark to start a prairie fire.
It only takes a spark to start a prairie fire.
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15. |
Meth - Blind Animal
03:20
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Exist in thoughts
Never want to feel anything
Stay distant
Animal
Blame, seek everything
you drank away
Violent situations
Empty, concentration
I've ruined everything
As the animal
Faceless god
Hung by the vultures
Bled as the offering
Follow and fracture
Lips deceive, the meek believe
Justify everything,
Leached out of rationale
Applause all around
Rinse and repeat
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16. |
Soul Glo - Cum To Play
01:16
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Look me in the eyes
I love it when you cry
Things spouted from the lips that kept me dry. I'm their machine, a worker. A thing set to repeat.
I've cum to pay bills
I've cum to stop living in fields
I've cum to party
I've cum to stay out of poverty.
Washing my self day after day, hour after hour.
You kept me because you had some money figures.
You kept me as a sign of having power over niggers
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On and on and on for the rest of time.
We leave the light at night.
An empty seat today is now our every day.
Your silence comes for the rest of us.
Each day I want to feel the rest of my life.
Each day I still want to live.
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Dogs barking at dogs, endlessly
The guilt of our pleasure burns, asphyxiating.
How was I so blind? Or are they who cannot see what's behind
Violence exudes all over my skin, but to fight is to love
I just wanna feel loved and adored.
I'm an egoist and self-destructive, sucking nectar from a poisoned daffodil. No more than Singularities in a honey hive.
Aware of being unaware, ignorance is bliss, the empathy we miss
All you see, you see with clouds around you.
All you're free, you do with walls around you.
While I risk my hands are torn to nothing.
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Legions surrounding like a virus detained Screaming infection took your soul away All around me this sickness has spread All around me his presence is dead
There is nothing cathartic about giving in So I stare at the ground, Beaten again. Legions surrounding, wrapped in disbelief Empty smiles, I don't want to miss a thing All around me this sickness has spread All around me his presence is dead
It's a tainted window I can't see through
It's a tainted window I can't see through
With all of that said, My times caught up to me With all of that said, My times caught up to me All around me this sickness has spread
All around me his presence is dead
It's a tainted window I can't see through
It's a tainted window I can't see through
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20. |
Lord Snow - In Between
02:47
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Just when I needed it I carved out a place of my own. Giving, giving space to what I've known.
To what I've known.
Honoring what it means to be.
Everything and nothing.
Not just to be here, to be here.
Not here.
Lights out, lights outs to uncover my truest form. On my own.
Not lost but found. Not lost but found.
More like everything and nothing.
An eternal longing to be seen.
Longing for a sense of belonging. Longing for a sense of belonging.
Talk, talk through, talk through this place to be.
Talk through, talk through to find a place of ease.
Talk through, talk through this place to be.
Talk through.
Talk through to find a place of ease.
Nothing not here. Nothing not here.
I shed myself of these binds.
Breaking ties. Breaking ties.
Finding self somewhere in-between.
In-between.
In-between.
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Ruiseñor que cantaba:
El temporal que viene es inminente,
Y no, nadie bajo este sol lo evitará Mira que el cielo es reflejo del mar.
Pesadillas y oscuridad,
Se avecina un gris profundo...
Es tiempo de partir Huir del espiral Directo hacia el viento Que me llevará
A través de la niebla
Contra las corrientes, contra las distancias.
Ruiseñor contemplaba:
El azul del mar es infinito,
Vuela y explora, ajusta el rumbo de la historia Ignora, ya quedó atrás
Tormentas, arena y olas
El roce del temporal
Inventa, descubre y llora, Invierte el cauce.
La magia del recorrido Incertidumbre y destino
La inmensidad de la esfera.
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I'm seeing red through the rose colored lenses
I had been convinced would make it all a little easier
A solemn afterimage burned in my eyes
Tainting all my everything my dreams are felled in tarnished gold I turn to face the light and blister in the sun
Cognitions carved into my skull like a panopticon
I know you hear me well, I see you saw me see
Just waiting for the call to rise to a grand occasion, I see?
Well, I'll see beyond the walls
I'll tear through them until there's nothing at all Deep, deep down inside
The place I go when it comes the time to hide
I can feel it trembling
Like a dying hand reaching for anyone to hold
I don't know where to begin
To find the words I should've said
Though I knew I felt more than they meant My nerves are shot
They're fucking calcified synapses
All these little tremors they keep shaking right there underfoot
These shitty structures that hardly give shade will collapse, saying just make do
No matter where you go there's always a distance of ruins in view
Come break me down into the ways I'm not myself
So woke! Yet another crisis
Impose some hope so we all lap it up
Stockades imbedded in our paths
So woke! Yet another crisis
Impose some hope so we all lap it up
Stockades imbedded in our paths
God damn it feels like purpose
Stockades imbedded in our paths
God damn it feels like purpose
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23. |
Zeta - Cascabel
01:53
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Quiero Correr
Para cambiar
Escapo de todo lo malo atrás
al desandar
pude entender
todo lo que re vivi de ayer
desapegarse no funciona dejando todo atras honrar todos tus pasos
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24. |
Frail Hands - Reprieve
02:28
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Well deserved / much needed rest. Drained by self-created threats Can't pick my poison / the toll it takes will haunt me all the same Kissing the ground where I stand won't change this at all
I can't tell if it's my heart, pushed too hard with no reprieve
Even still, I'm lying awake
Some things we can't find our way through Never quite knowing when to speak
Never quite knowing when to leave
I can't tell
Your last words mean everything
So why have any?
When all is said, silence is gold
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You claim what's not yours
Strip the life from bodies you stake claim
Control
Perpetuate normalcy of thievery
We stole their souls and all of their culture We are all guilty
Every day
This is not ours
It was never ours
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26. |
Crowning - Artifice
01:56
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Mass deception on display
Continuity is not guaranteed Living as if we'll never die, Pharoahs in a tomb
The root of creation is something from nothing Cultivate lead to gold
Break the cycle and cut the cord
Leave behind those dogmas that rob you of your humanity And stand proud that you exist in this world
Unlearn the lessons of the nation-state because
How do you build a better world on such empty gestures?
Time marches on
Erodes the image you portray
To spite this living hell
We create
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27. |
Senza - Due Glutton
03:19
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Bird's-eye view compete with diptera Struggle ends
Blindly consume
One thousand siblings dine together Fester infect swallow thrive devolving Feast on garbage of life
Rotting together expiry unavoidable decay hastens weakened existence All are equal in dirt and loam
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28. |
Eyelet - Cinders
02:45
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Pain Inescapable agony
Day after day it's the same
Blame lies with us but that's hushed
Smothered with blood
Blood deemed unrighteous
Constantly dreading these despicable tragedies
Further and further we stray
This strain will break us one day
What other species takes pride in destroying themselves?
We are the desperate, hunger-crazed snake caught devouring its own tail Insatiable appetite for atrocity consumed any trace of our innocence
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Ah yes, with everyone either living or dying, or killing or trying to stay alive. There is no time to pick out your favorite color, food, or show.
You're lucky you still have food, let alone a favorite one.
There is no safe place to be, among the current mediocrity.
Return
Return
Return
I feel like I'm trapped in a snow globe.
And some son of a bitch is shaking it HARD.
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30. |
Hazing Over - 2022
02:35
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Here's a sickening realization
Constriction from your bold frustration
You're rejecting what defies the odds
Seemingly unaffected by the cost
Fixated on unrelenting dejection
No room for pathetic deflection
Erupt in agony forever unsolved
The unsuspecting take the weight of the fall
Anything becomes the affliction
Bent beyond recognition
Reaching for empty contentment
Abrasion can't hold my attention
As I branch into total decline
The illusions begin to multiply
Spitting grievances into the void
I found a way to drown the noise
Drown it
Ousted
I see no way to disguise
Why should I try
It's all waiting for demise
Excessive duality
Living through the fallacies
Constantly found in me
Wounds gape
They broke through flesh
I don't see a reason to fix the mess
I am the poison
I am the repulsion inside of you
I give you every reason to escape
So why the fuck are you staying in place
This revelation is a clinging disturbance
You think you can suppress the urges
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31. |
Infant Island - Aurora
03:32
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Secreted auroras
Seep slow as time fills our vial,
Held firmly, hesitant to let ourselves enter
Towards withering flesh.
And I've reduced that
Which you've unrestfully
Polished.
You seem undisturbed at the thought
As a blank stare engulfs
And swarms a reel shining
The end of a show.
And I shall never continue to let it
Play out the way you had hoped.
Just the same I'll sit back
With you and stare at the aurora,
Seeping slow as time fills my vial,
Hesitant to let ourselves exit.
Until we all
Wither with it.
Until we all cease.
You will
Wither with it
And secrete your efforts dry.
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